What it was like

What it was like
to be here at the
end, sun rising
red in the smoke

of another wildfire,
this burning world:
the destruction
of innocents,

the ascendance of
demagogues, the rapacious
appetites of the worst
among us.

What it was like to
speak to a vanishing
posterity, disembodied
generations blind

to Nature,  deaf to the
real world, acolytes of
virtual villages with
a surplus of idiots.

What it was like
to care for what
was going,  gone,
to perpetually sit

shiva, to know our
dwindling lives would not
outlast this despair.
It was brushing

the old cat,
feeding the hens.
It was planting the raised bed,
smelling the last lilacs.

It was morning dark coffee,
leavened with cream,
the bittersweet effervesence
of afternoon beer,

the devoted daily
discharge of remaining
responsibilities to what
we love,  the keeping

of promises, still, and
again training the weary
eye on what beauty
endures, every conscious

hour a life preserver —
the solace of animals,
the fragrance
of blossoms —

tossed to the ruined
and reverent self.

7 comments

  1. Oh, Cate, you have captured so well what I’ve been feeling deep inside. All those things. ‘rapacious appetites of the worst among us’, ‘those blind to Nature’. All of it. Maybe it’s always been there, but just not as visible. … I’m getting ready to go on a lunch hike today, to take in the quiet of our forest, and be with some of the critters – the lucky ones who don’t hear the news – always looking for some hope that we might slow the descent. There are some glimmers out there. I know there are. All my best. -Russ

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    1. I hope that lunch hike is soul satisfying, Russ! There ARE glimmers — even occasionally among our own kind. 🙂 I’m sending affection, my kindred spirit!
      -Cate

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  2. Yes, this is *the living* for us: it’s in the face of every impulse that would (but ultimately fails to) annihilate it that we know its blessings…

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    1. So well put. Our lives are paradoxes, it seems, start to finish. Thanks for reading, Steph!

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  3. It is amazing how simply steping outside the backdoor sniffing the air, picking a few kale leaves, filling the birdbath or just standing for a few moments in a sweet breeze can , at least for a while, make life bearable when at times it doesn’t seem so. Thanks for writjng!

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    1. You’re welcome; thanks so much for reading. I’m like you in reliably finding “home” as an embodied creature in the natural world, even when being human otherwise feels diasporic.

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